The List

Like everyone with depression and who goes through suicidal phases (or as I like to phrase them ‘periods when you don’t want to die but you forget how to live’), I have a List. This is essentially a collection of things (reasons, people, books, movies) to look forward to or focus on when I’m down (which covers every point from minor moments of despondence to full-on non-rationality). I have it pinned to my Dashboard as a widget Post-it Note but wanted to share it in expanded form, mainly because it feels like something I should post.

Personal

  • Getting New Dog (Current ETA: February-June 2017-ish)
  • Headbutts from Isis (aka feline Valium)
  • This:
Bramble's look of unconditional love.
Bramble’s look of unconditional love (aka canine Valium).
  • Getting myself out of debt and buying myself a Sailor Moon music box as a reward (ETA: September 2017)
  • A solo off-season writing retreat in Bath
  • Spending time with my friends
  • Seeing Beloved Niece as much as I can
  • Living as stress free as possible and, thus, decreasing my chances of having episodes
  • Selling a short story and writing as many as possible
  • Getting back into novel projects
  • Travel around the UK and visit new places (I’d love to see Canterbury Cathedral and visit York and Glastonbury for example)
  • Go to some geek-related conventions
  • Go to exhibitions and stuff in London
  • Getting a new American-style fridge and a new iMac

Media (Film, TV, books, games, music, musicals and anime)

  • Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon: Amour Eternal (2016 Musical)
  • Moana
  • Passengers
  • Assassin’s Creed
  • Doctor Who: “The Return of Doctor Mysterio” (2016 Christmas Special)
  • Sherlock: Season Four
  • Dusk or Dark or Dawn or Day by Seanan McGuire
  • A Series of Unfortunate Events
  • Sing
  • Winter Tide by Ruthanna Emrys
  • Westworld: Season One OST
  • Rings (Don’t judge me.)
  • your name. (君の名は。)
  • South Park: The Fractured But Whole
  • Sailor Moon Crystal: Season Four (aka Dream-Hen, 夢編) Status: Unconfirmed but April is coming.
  • Star Trek: Discovery
  • Guardians of the Galaxy: Volume 2
  • Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Men Tell No Tales
  • Alien: Covenant
  • Wonder Woman
  • Despicable Me 3
  • World War Z 2 (Oh please be good)
  • Down Among the Sticks and Bones (Wayward Children #2) by Seanan McGuire
  • The Stone Sky (The Broken Earth vol. 3) by N.K. Jemisin
  • Dark Souls III: DLC Pack 2
  • Game of Thrones: Season Seven
  • Game of Thrones: Season Seven OST
  • Stranger Things: Season Two 
  • Westworld: Season Two
  • American Gods: Season One
  • Thor: Ragnarok
  • The Brightest Fell (September 2017) by Seanan McGuire
  • Star Wars: Episode VIII
  • Puella Magi Madoka Magica (魔法少女まどか☆マギカ) Movie 4
  • Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon 2017 Musical
  • Outlander: Season Three
  • New Kalafina singles and albums
  • The Monster Baru Cormarant by Seth Dickinson
  • Sailor Moon Crystal: Season Five (aka Stars-Hen, スターズ編)
  • FROM Software’s new IP
  • Untitled (The Nevernight Chronicles vol. 2 and 3) by Jay Kristoff
  • Anything by Mira Grant.
  • Night and Silence (September 2018) and The Unkindest Tide (September 2019) by Seanan McGuire